It began when everything was rosy, sweet and soft working hard to reach the goal
Everyone has a goal they want to achieve in life. I had like the rest of the world even those with unsound mind. They once had a goal to achieve, a dream to turn to reality but mine has become black, dark.
We were once two then three now one. Dreams were aligned , wishing the success for the other but was it all that. It didn't seem so. It was a bit blurry. I was part of three then two now one and it hurts badly.
I was not religious but that doesn't make me a sinner. It was true they say in times of need, you need a friend. Mine never showed up. Left in the dandy sidewalk all alone.
A goal that had been building for years all crumbling down in a second. Trying to run mad but couldn't, trying to end it all but millions were on the line. I hated every second of it, every moment, every time. Been the “villain “ every time is not so great at all.
Others achieving it while you are loosing everything. Tears could not solve it anymore, weeping and mourning couldn't bring back my hard work, what I had worked for years to achieve but now I can't even end it all.
The unknown has dealt with me thoroughly and now mocking my fate. I could have left but I was made to stay and be dealt with.Funny how my first published essay here is about fear and my fear has been turned to a reality and it hurts.
Life has shown me series of heartbreak, I don't know how to get pass it . I have learnt my lesson to not open my mind to any soul because writing which was my therapy could not help me. The damage has been caused, everything ruined and I pray I achieve a goal at least if my main goal will not be achieved unless a miracle happens.
Hmmmm, apt!